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The forecast is for the weather to lapse back later this week but for now I'm pretty damn high on spring. Driving into work this morning the sun was so bright I should have pulled down the visor but I didn't. I squinted and enjoyed the bright light, zapping happy around my brain.
I've just read a book that looks at life after death. The author says his research shows him that reincarnation is very real. That we come back again and again to learn lessons here on Earth and even when we graduate 'Earth School' there are further levels to go through. I like his version (despite not agreeing with his adherence to a linear timeline for these lives) and this morning I realised that days like today would have me flunking lessons on purpose just to keep coming back here. Looking at the Wiltshire countryside, bathed in morning sunshine, full of new life and promise and joy at making it through the winter I was totally overwhelmed. I didn't see trees and fields and birds and clouds, I just saw expressions of life so stunningly beautiful that I actually started to cry. Even by my standards that's a little extreme but it was the real thing, so I went with it. Mondays should always be this way.
I very nearly broke into a skip down the office corridor earlier. I think perhaps spring mania may be quite full on this time around. Could get interesting if I really do try to manage it better this year.
In some people with bipolar disorder (no, I'm not bi-polar), spring and summer can bring on symptoms of mania or a less intense form of mania (hypomania). This is known as reverse seasonal affective disorder. Signs and symptoms of reverse seasonal affective disorder include:
Persistently elevated mood
Unbridled enthusiasm out of proportion to the situation
Rapid thoughts and speech
Y'know what, never mind all that stuff...I'm just happy. And there's nothing at all wrong with that.